“‘I must keep praying’ ‘I feel like just giving up!’ How often has this thought passed through our minds (both yours and mine) in recent months? If I am honest, then I must admit it’s been quite often. I find myself so often in hopeless situations where I know full well that only God can deliver me but God doesn’t seem to have the same urgency as I do. Impatience and unbelief are at least a root of all my problems, and pride isn’t far behind, along with frustration (the fruit of my sin). Deep down I know that the Lord is working in my life and that I would be better off if I waited patiently for His time and His way of deliverance, but there seems to be a constant conflict between wanting to honor my God by doing His will and at the same time worrying myself sick over things which may never happen” (Apples of Gold).
I’ve noticed that at the heart of all my anxiety is the feeling that what I desire — what I desperately want down in my heart of hearts — must happen NOW or it will never happen. In my state of worry, I can’t see beyond the immediate tyranny of the urgent to fathom that God is bidding me to wait until either I am ready or the gift is ready. If I’m honest, my anxiety is me really confessing that I don’t believe that God is trustworthy or that He has my best interests in mind.
Every time I pray, it’s a kind of realignment of my priorities and my perspective into God’s way of seeing things. It’s me once again confessing my own inadequacy and my deep need for God to do what only God can. Plus, you can never go wrong praying the Lord’s prayer if you have nothing else.