I am full of wishes,
full of desires,
full of expectations.
Some of them may be realized,
many may not,
but in the midst of all my satisfactions and disappointments,
I hope in you.
I know that you will never leave me alone
and will fulfill your divine promises.
Even when it seems that things are not going my way,
I know that they are going your way
and that in the end your way is the best way for me.
O Lord, strengthen my hope,
especially when my many wishes are not fulfilled.
Let me never forget that your name is Love. Amen” (Henri Nouwen).
I’m thankful for the times when God didn’t give me what I wanted at the time. It would have been my undoing. I’m still fairly certain that most of the time I think I know what I want and what I need, but I really have no clue. But God knows.
Ultimately, all that I desire in the created things can be found in the Creator. If only I could desire the heart of God as much as what’s in His hand. If I could only long for the Giver as much as I long for His gifts. Then I would be much more content.