A Good Prayer at Close of Day

Sometimes, when your prayer life is dry and you have no words of your own, you can borrow from the saints of old.

I’ve been a longtime fan of The Book of Common Prayer which has collects and prayers to use throughout the year. Also, I really love The Valley of Vision, a collection of Puritan prayers that will rock your socks off.

The best way to pray when you don’t have any words of your own is to pray Scripture. I believe that there’s nothing God honors more in prayer than His own words prayed back to Him. After all, when we’re at a loss for words in prayer, the Holy Spirit intercedes on our behalf.

This one that I’ve posted is a good prayer for both morning and evening. It works as the first prayer of the day or the last before your head hits the pillow at night:

“God be in my head, and in my understanding;
God be in mine eyes, and in my looking;
God be in my mouth, and in my speaking;
God be in my heart, and in my thinking;
God be at mine end, and at my departing” (The Sarum Prayer).

A Baby’s Hug

What follows is a beautiful story I posted a few years back on Facebook. It’s a good reminder that those whom we see as dirty smelly vagabonds may very well be Jesus in His most distressing disguise. The rest that follows is worth the read:

We were the only family with children in the restaurant. I sat Erik in a high chair and noticed everyone was quietly seated and talking. Suddenly, Erik squealed with glee and said, “Hi there.” He pounded his fat baby hands on the high chair tray. His eyes we crinkled in laughter and his mouth was bared in a toothless grin as he wriggled and giggled with merriment.
I looked around and saw the source of his merriment. It was a man whose pants were baggy whose toes poked out of would-be shoes. His shirt was dirty and his hair was uncombed and unwashed. His whiskers were too short to be called a beard, and his nose was so varicose that it looked like a road map.

We were too far from him to smell, but I was sure he smelled. His hands waved and flapped on loose wrists. “Hi there, baby; Hi there, big boy. I see ya, buster,” the man said to Erik. My husband and I exchanged looks, “What do we do?” Erik continued to laugh and answer, “Hi, hi there.” Everyone in the restaurant noticed and looked at us and then at the man. The old geezer was creating a nuisance with my beautiful baby.

Our meal came and the man began shouting from across the room, “Do ya patty cake? Do you know peek-a-boo? Hey, look, he knows peek-a-boo.” Nobody thought the old man was cute. He was obviously drunk. My husband and I were embarrassed. We ate in silence but not Erik, who was running through his repertoire for the admiring skid row bum, who in turn, reciprocated with his cute comments.

We finally got through the meal and headed for the door. My husband went to pay the check and told me to meet him in the parking lot. The old man sat poised between me and the door. “Lord, just let me out of here before he speaks to me or Erik,” I prayed. As I drew closer to the man, I turned my back, trying to sidestep him and avoid any air he might be breathing. As I did, Erik leaned over my arm, reaching with both arms in a baby’s “pick-me-up” position. Before I could stop him, Erik had propelled himself from my arms to the man’s. Suddenly, a very smelly old man and a baby expressed their love and kinship. Erik, in an act of total trust, love, and submission, laid his tiny head upon the man’s ragged shoulder. The man’s eyes closed, and I saw tears hover beneath his lashes. His aged hands full of grime, pain, and hard labor, cradled my baby. No two beings have ever loved so deeply for so short a time. I stood, awestruck. The old man rocked and cradled Erik in his arms and his eyes opened and set squarely on mine. He said in a firm commanding voice, “You take care of this baby.” Somehow I managed, “I will,” from a throat that contained a stone. He pried Erik from his chest lovingly, as though he were in pain.

I received my baby, and the man said, “God bless you, ma’am; you’ve given me my Christmas gift.” I said nothing more than a muttered thanks. With Erik in my arms, I ran for the car. My husband was wondering why I was crying and holding Erik so tightly and why I was saying, “My God, my God, forgive me.” I had just witnessed Christ’s love shown through the innocence of a tiny child who saw no sin, who made no judgment. The child saw a soul, and his mother saw a suit of clothes. I was a Christian who was blind holding a child who was not. I felt it was God asking, “Are you willing to share your son for a moment?” when He shared His for all eternity. The ragged old man, unwittingly, had reminded me, “And he said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven” (Matthew 18:3).

Stress vs. Rest

Ain’t that the truth?

We are an instant gratification-obsessed culture, and as a result, we are probably one of the most stressed cultures in history. Waiting and resting are both becoming a lost art.

But then again God’s methods have always been counter-cultural. After all, His ways are not our ways, nor are His thoughts our thoughts.

God’s timetable is perfect. Whenever God asks us to wait, it isn’t because He isn’t ready but because we aren’t. We’re not ready to receive whatever we’ve asked for in prayer or claimed as a promised from God.

God knows that if we got everything we wanted and asked for and felt we deserved all right now, it would destroy us. It would be our complete and utter undoing.

Sometimes, God’s greatest mercy is saying no. Sometimes it means a “not now.”

Trust in God’s provision and God’s timing but remember that God’s presence is always better than anything He could ever give us outside of Himself.

Grand Old Opryland

I miss the Opryland theme park. I still can’t believe that they leveled it to build another shopping mall. All I got are memories and this lousy t-shirt.

I do like Opry Mills, but I don’t think it was worth losing a place that held so many memories for me growing up. Like that old Grizzly River Rampage. I believe the tagline on that one was “You will get wet.” And they sure were right.

There were some good rides (though I confess I was too chicken to ride the roller coasters), good food, and good live entertainment. I believe a lot of people who became famous got their start at Opryland.

The t-shirt’s not really lousy. I actually really like it. It reminds me of a part of my happy childhood. So I’ll wear it with pride.

Looking Upward

“I try to avoid looking forward or backward, and try to keep looking upward” (Charlotte Bronte).

I’ve found that when I focus exclusively on the future, it often leads to anxiety. When I all I do is look back at the past, I find despair.

The place where God meets with me isn’t in the future or the past, but here and now. The best way to see God isn’t to look forward or backward but upward.

Sometimes, when I’m hiking at Radnor Lake, I get so caught up in my own thoughts (usually about what’s coming up in the next few days) that I fail to take in what’s around me.

If I’m dwelling on what’s past or what’s yet to come, I can miss God speaking to me now. I can miss what God is doing around me now.

Don’t look back or forward as much as you look upward.

Please Forgive Me

I feel that I’ve become a bit jaded to worship music. I love it, but lately, it takes a lot to really get my attention. This past Tuesday at Kairos, I heard a new (to me) song that blew me away.

“For the way I’ve thought too much of myself
For the way I’ve been trusting in my flesh
For the way I’ve not come to you with tears and brokenness

For the way that I have made you small
For the way I’ve not noticed you at all
For my pride and fear that won’t let me surrender all
Forgive me

I need your mercy
I am not worthy
Without the cross
Oh, Lord come and wash me
From my head to my feet
I need you desperately
To forgive me

For the days that I love money more than You
For the days I love secrets more than truth
When I am too busy to reach for the needy, or reach for You
Forgive me

I need your mercy
I am not worthy
Without the cross
Lord come and wash me
From my head to my feet
I need you desperately Lord
To forgive me

I need your mercy
Without the cross
Lord come and wash me
From my head to my feet
I need you desperately
Please

Forgive me”

Best Joke Ever

This one’s so bad it’s good:

“Mahatma Gandhi, as you know, walked barefoot most of the time, which produced an impressive set of calluses on his feet. He also ate very little, which made him rather frail and, with his odd diet, he suffered from bad breath….

This made him a super calloused fragile mystic hexed by halitosis.”

You’re welcome.

Faith in the Deep End

When I was younger, I loved going to the YMCA pool. That for me marked the real beginning of summer when we’d pack up the station wagon and head over to the East Memphis Y.

Honestly, I was a bit of a scaredy-cat. I stuck to the shallow end where I could see the bottom and where I could stand with my head above water. Forget about me going off the diving board. I was sticking to the kiddie end of the pool.

I’m beginning to see that real faith is when you leave the shallow end and go deep. More accurately, it’s when you find yourself thrown in to deep waters that go over your head. Your circumstances seem hopeless and impossible.

Maybe true faith kicks in when your feet can’t feel the bottom anymore. Maybe that’s when you learn total dependence on God when all your props and crutches get kicked out from underneath you.

Sometimes for me, faith feels close to panic. It’s not a calm soliloquy in the storm but an almost hyperventilated prayer of “Help me, Lord, You’re all I’ve got.”

I stand by my statement that God can and often does give us more than we can handle. He will not allow us to be tempted beyond our ability to endure but He will absolutely give us circumstances where we’re forced to rely completely on God’s mercy and grace. Either He comes through or we drown.

I’m still not the world’s greatest swimmer, but I don’t mind the deep end as much. When it comes to faith in deeper waters, I’m slowly but surely learning not what great faith in God is worth but what a great God can do with my little bit of faith. Just a tiny mustard seed’s worth can move mountains . . . and keep me afloat.

Peanut Love

Can I be honest here? Ok, good. I’m really not looking forward to this work week. I know it’s a 4-day work week, but it’s also the end of the month, and that means that I’ll be super stressed up until Friday.

Still, I’m thankful for my job. I’m practicing the art of giving thanks instead of giving way to anxiety. Some days, I do better than other days. I’m learning that it’s an intentional choice I have to make every single day. Peace of mind doesn’t come by osmosis or happenstance.

I’m also thankful for a super cuddly kitty cat who does a lot to relieve stress. She may not be the ultimate lap cat that Lucy was, but she has a gentle way about her that’s very calming and soothing.

I’m reminding myself that no matter what, God’s in control. Even if my very worst case scenario happens tomorrow and I’m out of a job, God won’t be taken completely by surprise. Even then, He’ll be working all things together for good– including my good– and His glory.

I do wish that Peanut could be the one going off to work tomorrow and I could be the one sleeping in and lounging about all day. But I’m choosing to give thanks instead. Be thankful, be thankful, be thankful . . . I’ll keep it going until it finally sinks into my thick skull. Be thankful.