“What a terrible mystery
How I searched for the key
To unlock your guarded heart
And set your love free
What a beautiful dream
I tried more than anything
To unlock your heart
And set your love free
A terrible mystery” (The Choir)
“How do I wake up to joy and grace and beauty and all that is the fullest life when I must stay numb to losses and crushed dreams and all that empties me out?” (Ann Voskamp, One Thousand Gifts: A Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are)
“Joy and pain, they are but two arteries of the one heart that pumps through all those who don’t numb themselves to really living” (Ann Voskamp, One Thousand Gifts: A Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are).
I keep returning to this well of thanksgiving because it is there that I find life. I don’t mean blood pumping through my veins, breathing in and out kind of life. I mean the kind of life that consists of more than just existing, but being fully enveloped in and aware of God in each moment. The life that sees the rainbow through the rain clouds, the sun behind the dark night, and the joy behind the thousand daily heartbreaks and little dream-deaths we face each day. Joy is being truly awake and alive to the good in everything, even the worst of circumstances, knowing that the Father will work out all these things for the best possible good.
1,431) Muggy days that make the coming crisp days of autumn all the more welcome.
1,432) Reepicheep, the bravest of all the talking mice in Narnia.
1,433) Seeing my job as a priestly function of offering my work as a thanksgiving offering to God.
1,434) Having a job to go to, even if it was at 6:30 this morning.
1,435) That I still love driving my ’95 Jeep Cherokee even after 10 years.
1,436) Taking notes at Kairos tonight on my iPad2.
1,437) Having the best family (which includes blood relatives, and friends both on Facebook and in the real world).
1,438) Adam Wheatley and Courtney Cole leading the amazing worship tonight at Kairos.
1,439) My friend Paige who has faithfully led the greeter team and been one of my most supportive friends when I really needed it.
1,440) Signing up again to volunteer for Belmont move-in day for incoming freshmen.
1,441) Finally converted after much kicking and screaming (mostly in the metaphorical sense) to being an Apple guy. All I need now is a MacBook Pro.
1,442) Seeing one of my Romanian friends at Kairos tonight.
1,443) Resuming my lunch walks (even if this one was interrupted on account of rain).
1,444) Wifi when it is working right.
1,445) The movie Notting Hill, even if it’s a chick-flick. It’s a very well-made, well-written chick-flick.
1,446) Not even being the least bit tempted to break my more than 15-month break from carbonated beverages today.
1,447) My scars.
1,448) Singing “All that she wants is to go to Kairos” tonight to the tune of the Ace of Base song, “All That She Wants.”
1,449) When I let God be my defender and justifier.
1,450) Random acts of recycling.
1,451) Tagging these blogs creatively so more people can read them.
1,452) Being around something completely annoying and hearing the character Janice from the TV show friends in her nasal Bronx accent saying in my head, “OH MY GOD!”
1,453) Having such entertaining voices in my head.
1,454) Being reminded that surrender to Jesus is the truest freedom I’ve ever known.
1,455) Knowing that God is more faithful and eager to hear my prayers and answer them than I am to pray them most of the time.
1,456) The calming effect of hearing the rainfall outside.
1,457) Thinking of how very far my driving skills have come since my very first time behind the wheel, terrified out of my mind and driving down one of the busiest streets in Memphis.
1,458) Choosing joy over a bitter and complaining spirit.
1,459) My friend Emily, who also serves in Kairos faithfully each week and who has a true Proverbs 31 kind of beauty.
1,460) The thought of going to bed soon after a long day that started at 5:30 this morning.