What follows is something that I stole from something posted by a friend of a friend. Regardless, I think it might speak to some of you the way it spoke to me:
“Remember, this is a love story. And we will never appreciate or desire the hope of our True Love if lesser loves don’t disappoint. The piercing angst of disappointment in everything on this side of eternity creates a discontent with this world and pushes us to long for God Himself—and for the place where we will finally walk in the garden with Him again.” (Lysa Terkeurst)
I’ve been more than familiar with disappointment. In fact, recently I have felt rather beaten down by life. I have been facing a lot of challenges that have brought me to my knees with heartbreak and anxiety…but today as I read these words above something in me just clicked. I have recently found myself pleading with God over the heartache that seems to consume me. I have been feeling guilty for carrying hurt from disappointment. I would catch myself getting angry with myself for bringing it to the Lord and questioning why I couldn’t just let it go. There I was feeling like a burden for bringing my pain to the Lord, when that is exactly what He wants me to do. So this is your reminder that God is using your disappointments. When people hurt you, walk out on you, when you are made to feel as though you are unlovable and worthless, when you don’t get the apology you deserve, when you are dismissed, overlooked, and feel misunderstood, when you don’t get the job, the spouse, the child you have desperately prayed for, when you receive an unexpected diagnosis, when you lose a loved one too soon, when you feel lonely and taken advantage of, when life feels too hard to handle…He is there waiting for you. He is using your disappointment to draw you closer to Him. Friends, I pray that as you are wrestling with your own disappointment that you fall into Him with no hesitation and find the peace and hope He has waiting for you.
But may all who seek you rejoice and be glad in you; may those who love your salvation say continually, “Great is the Lord!” As for me, I am poor and needy, but the Lord takes thought for me. You are my help and my deliverer; do not delay, O my God!