“When John Kavanaugh, the noted and famous ethicist, went to Calcutta, he was seeking Mother Teresa … and more. He went for three months to work at ‘the house of the dying’ to find out how best he could spend the rest of his life.
When he met Mother Teresa, he asked her to pray for him. ‘What do you want me to pray for?’ she replied. He then uttered the request he had carried thousands of miles: ‘Clarity. Pray that I have clarity.’
‘No,’ Mother Teresa answered, ‘I will not do that.’ When he asked her why, she said, ‘Clarity is the last thing you are clinging to and must let go of.’ When Kavanaugh said that she always seemed to have clarity, the very kind of clarity he was looking for, Mother Teresa laughed and said: ‘I have never had clarity; what I have always had is trust. So I will pray that you trust God.'”
Sometimes, I think it would be so nice to have the entire roadmap of my life laid out before me so that I knew exactly what was coming and what to expect. I could rest a lot easier and have less anxiety knowing the outcome. But that’s not how God works.
God knows I couldn’t handle knowing all of my future. He knows just as well that if I knew everything, I wouldn’t feel my need for God or sense His provision as much. It’s like when I turn on the flashlight app on my phone. It’s not like I can suddenly see everything. I can typically see what’s in front of me where I’m shining my light. I know where to take my next steps. Then I adjust the light and I can see a little more.
That’s how God works. He shows me just enough to take the next step of obedience and faith. What lies beyond may be a mystery to me, but it is not to God. That’s why I trust God and let Him lead one step at a time. I don’t need clarity for my journey, but trust for the next step.