“Trustfulness is based on confidence in God whose ways I do not understand; if I did, there would be no need for trust” (Oswald Chambers, He Shall Glorify Me).

I suppose it’s impossible for a finite mind to understand the infinite mind of God. If I could completely figure out all of God’s ways and thoughts, then I suppose He wouldn’t be God. A greater mind would be able to comprehend a lesser mind but not the other way around.

If I understood all of God and His plan, then there really would be not need for faith. It would be logic. I could give myself some credit for figuring out God. But that’s not at all what Scripture says. It says that salvation is by faith and not of my own doing.

Even my own faith is a gift from God. That makes me humble but also grateful. Above all, it shows me how completely dependent on God I am at every waking or sleeping moment of my life. I can look back through all the years of my life and find only faithfulness.

So even when it doesn’t make sense, I’m choosing to trust anyway. Even when it runs counter to my intuition, I’m choosing to trust anyway. Even when I think I know better, I’m choosing to trust anyway.

In the end, my faith will be made sight. I will be able to look back at all those times when faith won out over fear and trust over doubt and realize that God knew what I didn’t and could see what I could not. His plans were better all along.