Today was all over the map for me.
I started off coming into work for my last day at All-American Pest Control, a job I’d held since 2015. They are in the process of automating a lot of processes and my job position got eliminated. I definitely hold no ill will toward my company. They were great.
But I knew at some point I was going to break down and cry my eyes out. I just didn’t know when.
I held it together for most of the day. It was only when I was heading out the door to my car with the last of my stuff I was taking home that I lost it. I hadn’t expected to be emotional when I lost my job, and I definitely didn’t expect to be as overwhelmed with grief as I was in that moment.
Lately, I seem to be living in a haze. I have trouble focusing on conversations, and often I feel like there’s a disconnect between me and everyone else in the world. I’m also feeling a mix of sadness (for what’s ending), anxiety (for the unknown), and excitement (for the future).
I still remember a verse that stood out to me that was quoted in an Elisabeth Elliott biography I was listening to on Audible. King Jehoshaphat was facing a vast army and his prayer to God included the line “We do not know what to do, but our eyes are on you” (2 Chronicles 20:12b).
That’s where I am currently. I don’t know what to do, but my eyes are on God. My hope is in His promises and in His provision. I can only do my part — get my resume updated and get as many network connections as I can — then God will take over and do what I can’t.
It’s funny that earlier I was praying that if it was God’s will to move me to my next career, that He would show me. And He did. Maybe a bit earlier than I was expecting, but I can say with assurance that it was of God and not me.
And now comes that waiting on the Lord part. . .
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You are experiencing grief at the loss of your job because you lost your job of 9 years. I was recently told I was being put on unpaid leave because they could not accommodate me. I was disoriented and upset. I played a video on YouTube to listen to while sleeping about how God is my refuge and shield. I was confused and not coherent due to my stress. Although, I felt extremely stressed. I wrote a detailed time line and then let God minister his Word in the Psalms. My state of mind changed anI I started thinking about God as my provision.
Don’t forget to contact Unemployment and get coverage, while you are out of work.If you register, ASAP, you should get it while you search for work.
See God as your Father who provides for us.
Psalm 37:25-26 TPT “I was once inexperienced, but now I’m old. Not once have I found a lover of God forsaken by him, nor have any of their children gone hungry.”
Psalm 27:14 TPT “Here’s what I’ve learned through it all: Don’t give up ; don’t be impatient; be entwined as one with the Lord. Be brave and courageous, and never lose hope. Yes, keep on waiting— for he will never disappoint you!”
Psalm 51:12 TPT “Let my passion for life be restored, tasting joy in every breakthrough you bring to me. Hold me close to you with a willing spirit that obeys whatever you say.”