I think the biggest lesson I am learning right now is that it’s foolish to put all my hopes and desires into this present world alone. It’s not wrong to want to seek happiness, but it’s wrong to think that everything I yearn for can be found on this side of heaven.

I think C. S. Lewis said that sometimes God puts desires into us that nothing in this world can satisfy to show us that we were made for another world. No Amazon package, no car, no house, no job, no spouse can fully fill the gaping hole of longing that we carry.

And yet I forget. I keep thinking that something other than God and heaven can completely bring me joy and peace. To think that God can give me happiness apart from Himself is foolishness because it doesn’t exist (and I’m pretty sure C. S. Lewis said that, too).

Learning to live with a bit of discontent is to understand that the life of faith is a kind of now and not yet proposition. We have salvation and all that comes with it, but not in its complete form. We have joy, but it has not been made full. We have peace, but still mixed with all the anxieties of this life.

We have faith, but one day that faith will be made sight and our joy made complete and our eyes will see what we were really longing for all along, and it will be Jesus. Only Jesus.