I have to admit that I have become a numbers junkie when it comes to my blog. Every time I write one lately, I come back several times to see how many people have viewed it. I think it’s become a pride thing for me and I’ve caught myself thinking that all these people are reading these blogs because I am such an incredible writer. Wrong. It’s all God’s doing.
I write blogs because it helps me articulate my own feelings about myself and God and others. It’s very therapeutic and healing. Even if I were the only one to read my blog, I believe it would be worth it for the catharsis that comes from putting words to what I’m feeling and thinking.
I write blogs because I want people to know how deeply God loves them. Not that He loves them in an dry academic or stuffy theological way, but in a passionate, crazy, “I’m head over heels in love with you” kind of way. I desire for people to see themselves the way God sees them. If you are in Christ, you are already pure and righteous and holy and victorious and forgiven. God sees you and sees Christ in you and is pleased with you.
Even if one person reads my blog, it’s worth it. As I typed that last sentence, I could feel my pride taking a hit. Part of me will always want legions of fans, but that’s the part of me that has to die. The part of me that lives knows that honoring and pleasing God is what matters, not numbers.
So if you’re my number one fan out there reading this blog, thank you. If you’re my lone reader, I hope God blesses and encourages you through this blog. Ultimately, anything that speaks to you from this is God and not me. That’s not false modesty. That’s true of anyone who communicates God’s truths.
So thank you for reading this, whether you’re the one lone reader or whether you’re part of 100 people reading it. It really doesn’t matter. What matters is that I continue to be faithful to put on here what God puts on my heart. By the grace of God, I will continue to do just that.
Thank you, God, for speaking to me so much lately. Without you, I have no blog. Without you, I have no breath in my body. Thanks for that, too!
Amen and amen!
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Well rest assured God spoke through you today because I needed to hear this. I have been struggling with the same thing. I guess it is pride but I also felt that the more people that read my blog the more people will hear the truth of Christ. Did you ever feel that too? But the Holy Spirit really began speaking Friday and showing me that its all God. I had to release my writing to Him completely and allow Him to take it and me wherever He wants. Pride. Its freeing to let go of it but hard to just leave it. Thanks for letting God speak through you today.