Lord, here I am at 12:23 on a Sunday morning, and I am beyond tired. I am aware that my emotions play tricks on me at this hour and my heart is at its most deceitful. My mind will run down anxious paths to conclusions that seem sane late at night, but are shown up for the craziness they are in the morning. Help me to trust not in what I think or feel or even what I think I know, but help me trust You.
You never waver or change or fall apart like I do. You are the same yesterday, today, and forever. “I know that You are for me” is a line from a Kari Jobe song that keeps resounding in my head. It’s true. You are for me. You deal with my daily mess and my messed-up mind and my deceitful heart and You always lead me to the truth.
Lord, everything in my life– the good, the bad, and the ugly– has led me to this moment. I have no idea why I am not a basket-case most of the time other than You holding me together. Your relentless tenderness has carried me to where I am finally growing up and seeing healing in my heart and in my mind. You said that nothing is impossible for you, and I believe that now.
Take my heart and make it beat with Your heartbeat. Take my mouth and fill it with Your eternal song. Take my eyes and give me Your vision for the world. Take my desires and give me Your desires, not only for me, but for the broken, needy, destitute, and lonely.
Give me a faith that never fails, a hope that never wavers, a trust that never doubts. I want to want more than anything to be like Jesus and I don’t. I can name off a list of at least fifty things I want more than Christlikeness. But You said that all You need is a place to start in me and then You can transform me. So here’s my starting place.
Bless my family and friends and keep them under the shadow of Your wings. Show them the same grace You’ve shown to me. Sing over them in the silent watches of the night like You have sung over me countless times. Make them glorious trophies of Your grace that will amaze the people around them.
Thank You for being You and for loving me for me.
Amen and amen.
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Beautiful. I don’t know if this makes you feel better or worse, but I think our brains work in very much the same way. But you are much better at striving to take the higher road. I want to be more like you 🙂
I also dont have to remember what lie I told all I have to do is go to the memory bank thats the way I told it ..