“How long does it take for your soul to recognize that your life is full? The slower the living, the greater the sense of fullness and satisfaction. The body and soul can synchronize” (Ann Voskamp, One Thousand Gifts: A Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are).
One important part of learning to living out of eucharisteo is to recognize not every moment will feel like joy. There will be relapses into old ways of thinking– of fear and anger and the need to control and manipulate. It’s okay. Just don’t stay there. Center your mind on the little things you love that make you grateful. Make a list of them. Maybe don’t be quite as OCD as me and list 1,420 (and counting) things, but start small and make a list of 20-25.
1,521) Remembering that no failure is final.
1,522) Chocolate moose tracks ice cream from Purity.
1,523) Little pleasant surprises like getting off work 30 minutes early.
1,524) Finding a retail store called Ragamuffin Shoppe (which turned out to be a children’s clothing store) located off of Cool Springs Blvd.
1,525) Giving one of my blog cards to the person who worked there.
1,526) Walking all the way to the intersection of Cool Springs Blvd and Frazier Drive (even though it was hot and muggy and I sweated like the pig that’s about to be Christmas Day dinner).
1,527) The video I posted today of a cat in a shark costume riding on one of those roomba thingys.
1,528) Not being ashamed to use the word “thingy” when talking about something electronic or mechanical.
1,529) Getting to sleep in tomorrow morning.
1,530) Not having any of those 4-hours-of-sleep kinds of nights lately.
1,531) “God is our refuge and strength, a helper who is always found in times of trouble” (Psalm 46:1).
1,532) The little Snickers frozen ice cream bars.
1,533) Finding out about a book called 14,000 Things to be Happy About from my cousin and one of my favorite people ever, Rachel Johnson.
1,528) My cat Lucy giving me high fives.
1,529) My little Casio portable TV (even though it doesn’t work currently).
1,530) The song “To Be With You” by Mr. Big that brings back memories every time I hear it.
1,531) God’s mighty saving arm that is both strong and long enough to reach me.
1,532) The perfectly ripe banana I had today.
1,533) The video I just posted on Facebook of a 20-month old girl singing along with Elvis’ “An American Trilogy.”
1,534) The peace and quiet at 11:30 pm on a Friday night.
1,535) Not having any plans or money or gas in my car this weekend.
1,536) Not having to work this Saturday.
1,537) Being at peace at the moment.
1,538) Accepting what is, letting go of what was, and having faith in what can be (and knowing God is in all three places still).
1,539) The way Foursquare listed my workplace as Affionion Group.
1,540) The freedom that comes with not caring about appearing foolish in the eyes of others.
1,541) Getting the inside joke for once.
1,542) When other people get my obscure movie and TV show references.
1,543) Having enough of these things I love for 49 (and still counting) posts.
1,544) Not having a sinus headache today.
1,545) Eating at seafood places just for the halibut (you’ll get it if you read it out loud really fast).
1,546) All those cat emoticons on Facebook Messenger.
1,547) Those strong arms of my Abba holding on to me tightly tonight.
1,548) Reading the Bible on the YouVersion app on my iPad 2.
1,549) The dream of owning the Complete Series of Friends on blu ray one day.
1,550) Obviously being a night owl (as I type this at 12:12 am).