Dealing with Pride

“For pride is spiritual cancer: it eats up the very possibility of love, or contentment, or even common sense” (C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity).

In the Bible, you see that pride is not something to celebrate but instead something to crucify. The Bible says that pride goes before a fall. Not just some of the time but all of the time. Why am I sharing that?

Because pride is something I deal with on a daily basis. I am prone to be proud in one of two ways — either thinking too much of myself and my abilities or thinking too little of myself and still keeping the focus all on me.

The antidote to pride, as the old saying goes, is not to think less of yourself but to think of yourself less. That comes from focusing on others more, and above all, focusing on God most.

Very often, I find that those trials God puts me through that I’d rather avoid are precisely the ones I need most. Those are teaching me to put away pride and embrace humility and dependence on God. Every time I think that I won’t make it and still somehow wake up to another day is another reason to lean hard on God.

The ultimate irony of the life of faith for someone like me is that it’s easy to get prideful about my humility. It’s easy for me to boast (even if only to myself) about how much I’m trusting in God. It can become a show where I’m the main attraction. In that case, I’ve missed the point entirely.

The older I get, the more I understand what Jesus meant about the right hand not knowing what the left hand is doing. It means that as I work out my faith, sometimes those qualities that I pray for and long for can come out of me without me even being aware of it. Sometimes, I can see it in others without their being aware of it.

That’s why in-person one-on-one community is vital instead of being isolated and connecting only through virtual and online. But that’s really a topic for another day.

Jesus said that pride isn’t something to boast about but something to put to death. That means that every time I see it rising up in me, I need to take those thoughts and intentions captive and pray for God’s grace to keep me humble and surrendered. That’s when God can truly show up and show out.

A Pleasant Diversion

This past Sunday, I showed up at my church to volunteer as a tech and to run all the worship slides. When I arrived, the tech director over all our campuses had a request. Would I be willing to go over to our Woodbine campus and fill in during their service?

It took me all of about two seconds to say yes. I love the Woodbine campus. One of my favorite people, Hunter Melton, is the campus and teaching pastor there. Plus, I know a few of the members. I love how God is at work in that community through that small but growing band of believers.

I was blessed that day. Hunter brought the Word with authority. I got to see some people I hadn’t seen in about a year since the last time I visited that campus. The new worship pastor, Cody Clark, was amazing and the songs were what I needed.

I suppose I could have declined the request, but I would have missed out on that blessing. Sometimes, there’s a special kind of joy that only comes from obedience and from being smack dab in the center of God’s will. That was me that day.

I look forward to being back at my own church this coming Sunday, but I’m praying for Woodbine, as well as all the other campuses, because God is doing something special in each place. God, bring Your holy revival to the city of Nashville, and let it begin in the hearts of your people as they earnestly seek Your face and surrender to Your will, whatever that may be. Amen.

Thankful for God Saying No

That’s one thing I’ve learned over the years. Most of the time, I don’t know what to pray for. I can’t tell you how many times I’d ask God for something and get a no, only to look back later and be thankful He didn’t give me what I asked for.

Sometimes, God gives me what I didn’t ask for. In hindsight, I would have asked for that very thing had I known then what God knows.

I heard that God will typically answer more prayers with no than yes. I don’t know yet if I believe that or not, but it does make sense in a way. A lot of what we ask God for would destroy us if we got it when we asked for it. Sometimes, we ask for too little because we don’t see what God sees. Sometimes, I confess that I am only thinking of me and my little world while God is thinking of the whole universe and everyone in it.

More and more, I think the best way to pray is to leave it in God’s hands and simply pray as Jesus did when He prayed Thy will be done. That’s the best way.

The Tick of God’s timing

I know I’ve said it before, but the voice of fear and anxiety says that everything has to happen right away or it won’t happen at all. Sometimes, anxiety sounds like maybe you’ve already missed it and blown your chance. Or maybe something like God won’t really keep His promises after all.

But as the old song says, the voice of truth tells me a different story. If you can breathe deep and take a moment, you might remember all those times when God came through at the exact perfect time. You might recall how His provision wasn’t a moment too soon or a moment too late.

But sometimes fear speaks so loudly, it’s hard to hear the still small voice over all the shouting. Over all the earthquakes and whirlwinds and fires that try to imitate God’s voice. But there is a Prince of Peace that can tell those winds and waves to be still. There is one whose perfect love still casts out all fear.

The more we live surrendered, the more we get in sync with God’s rhythms and learn His ways and learn to trust His timing. The less we are to give in to anxiety and fear over each new circumstance and setback.

“I have been young and now I am old, yet I have not seen the righteous abandoned or his children begging for bread” (Psalm 37:25, HCSB).

That’s a promise. God won’t forsake the ones He declared righteous by the work of Christ on the cross. When He sees you, He doesn’t see a past littered with failure and mistakes. He sees the perfect blood of His Son shed for you and covering you.

You can trust in God’s timing because you can trust in God’s heart for you. Neither will ever let you down. Both are faithful and true.

The Perfect Church Service

“A good shoe is a shoe you don’t notice. Good reading becomes possible when you need no consciously think about eyes, or light, or print, or spelling. The perfect church service would be one we were almost unaware of; our attention would have been on God” (C. S. Lewis).

I’m looking forward to worshipping with my church in a couple of days. The music is always top notch and the sermons are always on point. But I confess that sometimes I take myself out of worship when I critique the songs.

Back in the day, my gripe was that the songs were too old and not current enough. Now, I prefer the older songs and don’t care as much for the newer ones. And don’t even get me started on the sometimes wonky rhyme scheme and rhyming words that don’t actually rhyme.

All that to say that in those moments, I am not worshipping. If anything, I can be guilty of worshipping worship or worshipping the experience instead of worshipping God.

Worship happens when I become so focused on God that I’m almost unaware of anything else. It could be the newest worship song or a 400-year old hymn. It doesn’t matter. It could be the perfect sermon or just an average one. It doesn’t matter.

I think the key to worshipping in a church service is that your worship doesn’t start at 9:00 am when the church service starts. My whole life should be an act of worship, and Sunday is just a continuation of that.

Plus, sometimes I need to remember that in worship, it’s really not all about me. Sometimes, the songs and the sermon will feel like someone was reading my diary. Other times, it might be meant for someone else. Some Sundays, I’m called to give more than receive. But in all cases, it’s always only about God and not me.

Your Goodness is Running After Me

I learned something new recently. In Psalm 23, King David writes about how goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life. Apparently, the Hebrew word for follow isn’t a passive kind of following behind but more of an aggressive running after. I remember a poem called The Hound of Heaven about how God pursues His own, not with the intent to harm but to bless.

I’m thankful for grace that runs after me, especially on those days when I’m prone to wander away from what I know to be true. I can stubbornly follow my own path, even if I know it leads nowhere good. But God is never far away, always guiding me back to the right path.

The translation I’m reading currently says that God’s goodness and grace will pursue me every day of my life. Again, God’s not trying to run me over like an 18-wheeler. He’s after me the way the father runs after His own son in the story of the prodigal.

I’m thankful that I can’t outrun God. Sure, I can run fast enough and long enough to where I get to a place where I feel lost and unsure where God is, but God always knows where I am. He’s never very far away.

“Your beauty and love chase after me every day of my life. I’m back home in the house of God for the rest of my life” (Psalms‬ ‭23‬:‭6‬, MSG).

My Favorite Gig

I’m back dog sitting two of the best pups in the entire world. They’re a bit older, so they’ve mellowed a little from when I first started taking care of them. One, a Jack Russell mix, was basically a little ball of energy.

I believe they’re all rescues, so I’ve had the privilege of seeing them learn to trust me after they went through abuse in their prior home. But to see one of the dogs go from barking at me constantly to hanging out with me is like a balm to my soul.

There were three at one time, but one crossed the rainbow bridge a few years ago. I still miss her sweet face and her gentle timid ways. I think the other pups still miss her at times.

But it’s a good lesson on people. If you trust God and don’t give up on people, you can be surprised what God can do — not just in their hearts but in yours as well. So often I think the other person needs to change when God really wants to work on me,

All it takes is patience and a little love. It helps to remember how patient God has been with us all these years. If I could learn to love people (including myself) the way God loves me, then I’d be a better man. One day, I believe I will.

Live the Questions

I think another way to say this would go something like this: “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight” (Proverbs‬ ‭3‬:‭5-6).

The point is to be okay with unanswered questions. It’s to live with not knowing all the answers, especially questions like why and how. Trust means leaving it all up to the one who knows it all.

I remember when I was a child. I didn’t need to know everything. I could trust my parents had my best interests at heart and rest in their care for me. I could be a kid and sleep at night with the full assurance that I was in good hands.

I think that’s how it is for those who belong to Jesus. We can wear ourselves out trying to figure out everything or play out scenarios for every possible outcome, or we can choose not to trust in our own understanding and to lean on the Lord with all we are.

If we live consumed by the past or obsessed with the future, we miss the present. We miss God showing up and speaking to us in the here and now. We miss our lives.

As simplistic as it sounds, the best way is still to trust and obey. It’s to lean on God with all our hearts and minds and everything else. Then we can live with unanswered questions because we know the one with the answers.

Happy 8th Gotcha Day, Peanut!

I’ve told the story before, but it’s worth repeating. 8 years ago, I walked into the Williamson County Animal Shelter looking for a cat.

Little did I know that one of the cats that day was looking for me. I turned around and there was this little tortie paw sticking out of the cage reaching for me. She chose me to be her forever human.

Right now, I’m dog sitting in Bellevue for two of the best pups ever, so I can’t give her a celebratory belly rub. But that will happen on Saturday when I get home.

I had hoped to find a cat like my first cat Lucy, but God knew what I needed more than I did. 8 years later, I have to agree.

She really is the most loving and gentle cat I’ve ever known. She spends most of her time napping — usually underneath some pillows or covers. She gets her 15 minutes of exercise with some insane zoomies.

I wouldn’t trade her for a whole bag full of magic beans or for all the money in the world. Here’s to (at least) another 8 years of joy.

Happy Gotcha Day, Peanut!

The Sum Total

“Whatever I am today for God is largely a result of people who invested in my life” (Michael Catt).

I think that’s the absolute truth. I am the sum total of so many people who have touched my life. It could be family that I have known for all my life or people I only knew for a short amount of time. But I am who I am because of every single one of them.

I wish I could personally thank each and every one. Some I can, but there are others that I won’t get a chance to tell until heaven. Also, the list is ridiculously long and it would take me forever to get through.

That’s how God shapes us to a large extent. He sends people into your life — some for a lifetime, some for a few moments. But each one plays a part in making and shaping you into the person God designed and envisioned you to be.

A good lesson is to appreciate these people and be thankful for the time you had with each one. I can’t tell you how often I will catch myself saying something that immediately makes me think of someone I knew back when. Or maybe I’ll dip my Chick-fil-A waffle fries in their barbecue sauce and think of a friend from college. Or I’ll see my email address that came from a nickname someone gave me at college.

The list goes on. Every day, God is shaping and molding us by the people He sends into our lives. Each one has a part and a purpose. Each one leaves us a little different than before. And each one leaves a set of footprints in our hearts, and we are never the same.