I admit it. I am a goober. I do stuff and look back and wonder what the heck I was thinking. I get anxious and overanalytical about things I said and didn’t say and how I really offended someone, when that person wasn’t the least bit offended. I have in the past read way too much into what a girl said or did not say and got my hopes up when I shouldn’t have or gave up too soon when I maybe should have persevered a bit longer.

Particularly, I am not good when I don’t get a response. Ok, I suck at non-responses. I imagine all kinds of things– I really messed up with this person and they are really upset with me, or they are no longer interested in my friendship. Again, my imagination tends to run contrary to the truth. Which is that the person is busy or forgot or actually has a life outside of responding to my posts. Go figure.

But God loves goobers like me. He’s working on me and, believe it or not, I am way less anxious and overanalytical as I used to be. His love is changing me and making me into something new. Not something normal, but something extraordinary.

If you are a goober like me, fret not. There is hope. God still does miracles and He can make your life into something that will amaze and astound you and bring glory to His name. People will look at your life and be captivated by the God who could do something like that.

So relax and breath slowly. You really are going to be OK. Learn to rest in God and His timing and His ways and you will find the perfect peace that passes all understanding ruling your heart and mind. You will find that His perfect love is casting out all your fears, one by one.

So that’s it. I try too hard a lot of the time and I’m passive too much. I am also way blessed to have friends and family that see me not as I am, but as I will be through the grace of God. And Jesus has promised He will be right there with me until the very end when He can show off His finished masterpiece in me to the world.

Amen and amen.