Being spiritually mature means being obedient. A friend of mine I was chatting with just now said something like this: God doesn’t call us to be mature, but to be obedient. I think he’s right. Obedience leads to maturity. We try to be obedient and leave the results to God.

That being said, if I am seeking God and following after the heart of Christ, then I don’t need praise. I don’t need to be constantly recognized, approved, applauded, patted on the back, etc. I don’t need to be the center of attention or even to be noticed. I come to the place where pleasing God is enough. Where I am willing to walk alone if need be.

I am a recovering co-dependent. So much of how I viewed myself for so long depended on how I perceived how others saw me. And I saw rejection from others. I see now I projected my own feelings of worthlessness onto others. Those people you are so worried about what they think of you are probably wondering what you think of them. We are all insecure at some level.

If I am faithful, it shouldn’t matter who keeps up with my status updates on facebook. I won’t be obsessed over how many comments and “likes” I get. It won’t matter whether I get 50 people to read this blog. . . or 5. .  . .or sometimes 1. Even if that one person is me! My job is to do what I believe God has called me to do. Period. Be faithful and obedient. God will take care of the results.

That’s all I got for tonight. I am feeling sleep-deprived. But thankful. I am thankful for my family who loves and supports and encourages me. I am thankful for all my friends who know me and still stick around anyway. I am thankful that my Abba is still very fond of me.

Amen and amen!